Saturday, January 20, 2007


I used to think that whatever that has happened to her has got nothing to do with me and since I abhorred her, I might as well just steer clear of her. However, recently, I cannot bring myself not to care about her anymore. At first, I thought that I was just being kaypo to ask what has happened to her and that I do not care for her at all. But I slowly realise that I DO care for her and unknowingly, want to try to help her as much as I can. Perhaps I'm starting to treat her as one of us. And perhaps, I've really grown up. I feel so helpless when I cannot help her and all I can do is to try talking sense into her. Knowing that her classmates won't even care about her and treats her misfortune as a joke actually antagonizes me. What's wrong with these people? Where has all their conscience gone to? Do they even have a HEART?

I sort of can feel the pain she's going through now and grief just overflows my heart everytime I see her. In her eyes, there are isolation, yearning for love, grief, pain, and many more. Perhaps because I'm living in the comfort zone, it's the first time I'm seeing such eyes.

I just hope that she'll cherish herself more ...

The thought of how mean I was to her last time caused a pang of guilt.
Hontou ni gomen na.

10:07 PM
Cartoon KAT-TUN II You <3