Wednesday, October 18, 2006


I think I'm having a phobia for medicines. The pills and syrup can really make me puke. Last night, my mom applied this chemical on her hair that smelt like medicine to me and I suddenly went crazy. I covered my nose and mouth and opened my room's door widely so that the smell could go out. I cried when my mom went near me because of the smell. It smelt exactly like my cough syrup! Then the image of me having to drink that horrible syrup made me feel really afraid. So, my mom had to stay away from me till the smell of that chemical went away. I really don't want to take any medicine anymore. *Sobs*


Anyway, Drey, I don't wanna care about anything that's happening now. I do hope you feel this way too so that everything would rest. But just a piece of advice for you and Yiqing. Take it if you want. I just felt that because I'm your senior, I should at least give you guys some advice and think through everything.
Please don't shout at your mother anymore. I know it may seem weird to have come out from me since I shouted at my mom frequently for the last two years. Then, I come to realise that being a mom is really not easy. Your mom really loves you and tries her best to give you everything she can. Perhaps just some gestures of appreciation would be nice? She may be naggy at times but just bear with it and keep quiet. Don't shout at her or call her a bitch. Imagine how hurting it is. Fancy having her own daughter calling her a bitch or screaming at her. This is an act of a total spoilt brat. I know I'm spoilt too, but I'm trying hard to change. At least I don't shout at my mom now, and I have NEVER used vulgarities on her. I realised how much my mom actually cared for me after coming down with so many illnesses this time. She took good care of me and even accompanied me to sleep. She did whatever she can just to make me feel well. If you are sick, will your friends take good care of you? Will they accompany you all the way? It's your mom who's always showering you with care and love. Surely loving her back and respecting her is something easy to achieve? If you can treat your friends so well, I bet you can treat your mom well too. She may have showed favouritism to your other siblings some times but if you can accept your friends' flaws, why not hers? When you've had a quarrel with your friends, they leave you. But when you've quarrelled with your mom, she's still there for you. She let everything pass and even continued pampering you. Don't you feel a little touched after all the things she have done for you? Sometimes just remembering the good she has done and forgetting the bad she has done would be a much better thing to do. And it would make you a happier person as well.
Yeps, that's all I wanna say. If you do bother to take my advice, that would be good. If you don't bother to, I wouldn't mind as well. Afterall, my words don't weigh alot.

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