Tuesday, May 02, 2006


I stared out of the window, with my hand below my chin. The sky looked authentically beautiful, studded with millions of stars. Wouldn't it be great to luxuriate in this majestic sight with him? I knew it was impossible. The thought of him caused a pang of sadness as the harsh reality of his rejection gripped me. A tear rolled down my chubby cheeks and I wiped it off with the damp tissue which I used previously to wipe the earlier tears away. Agony started eating into my soul bit by bit and I started my series of cries again. I could hear the echoes of my sobbings in the desolated room and the floor was infested with abandoned tissue boxes. I have had enough of all the suffering and pain I'm in, I want all these to end. Blood started dripping down from my wrist.

There I lay, lifeless on my bed, as my heavy and swollen eyelids started closing...

My eyelids slowly fluttered open. The blatant white lights were blinding my eyes and I couldn't open them completely. Where am I? Is this heaven? I was lost momentarily, but was snapped back to reality after a moment. I scrutinized my surrounding and realized that I was in a hospital. It was him, by my bedside. Am I dreaming? The tears that have just accumulated blurred my vision, and after a few blinks, they started falling. "Don't cry, my dear. I'm here." His warm voice secured me. My soul that was once lost, have been found again. I reached out for him, but somehow, I couldn't touch him. Then, the image of him slowly disintegrated.

It wasn't him. I was just hallucinating. There was not a soul in the hospital ward. I'm alone, and I'll always be.

8:38 PM
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