Monday, March 20, 2006


sometimes i wonder,
should i give up on you?
or should i just continue and maybe one day,
something miraculous will happen?
but how long can i wait?
plus, i cant bring myself to give up on him.
i really cant.
sometimes you treat me hot,
sometimes you treat me cold.
you're so inconsistent.
you bring my hopes high up,
then smash them again.
do you know how hurtful it is?
its probably a mistake falling in love with you.
i've never felt this way before.
and i've never liked someone for more than a month.
you're the first.
it has been two months and the feelings are getting stronger.
like wtf.
i cannot stand it anymore.
everytime i try to turn my gaze away from you.
i try not to look at you.
but wherever i turn to,
i see your face.
i want to avoid yet i cant.
i naively wish that i could actually receive ONE sms from you everyday.
i actually go online so often hoping you will initiate a conversation.
i tell myself not to care,
yet i cant help but care.
i cant help but help you everytime you ask me to.
it seems that i dont know how to use the word 'no' on you anymore.
can you give me real hopes and not false hopes instead?

8:21 PM
Cartoon KAT-TUN II You <3